From a very early age I felt like I was the black sheep of my family. I was groomed to follow in my parents’ footsteps with the goal to live the American Dream.
Despite their best intentions, this mold didn’t fit me, and it wasn’t hard to figure out that I was rejected for my being who I really was and for what I loved to do most in my life. I pushed back against what was safe and secure and continually found myself suffering without support as I tried to find success first as a musician and then later as a healer.
How could I give myself permission to be powerfully me?
I wanted to live the life I was meant to live, not the life that someone else thought I should live.
Every time I unconsciously approached the boundaries that my parents (and their parents before them) had set, I was actively discouraged from continuing to follow my dreams. I felt as if invisible forces were holding me back and taking away my power.
I sought healing for the wounds that never seemed to heal, while at the same time I knew I was being called back into the magical world of Spirit that I entered when I was a child.
Shortly after learning to meditate I started to hear the voice of my higher self. This set me off on a long voyage of discovery through the worlds of high ceremonial magick, Wicca, and finally, shamanism.
Not only did I find there was more to the universe than meets the eye, but I learned that through intent and ritual it is possible to cause changes in the material world by changing the energetic world. As within, so without.
Following my inner guidance, I made my first trip to the Peruvian Amazon to take part in a plant spirit retreat. I had no idea what I was getting into: I was being called home.
My life would never be the same.
After my parents passed, I finally felt like I could be myself and step into my power.
I didn’t want the life I had been boxed into. I chose to wipe the slate clean and start afresh.
I made the risky decision to quit my secure teaching job so I could spend several months working with a master jungle shaman who I had met on a brief trip some months before. I knew this is where I would truly discover my personal power.
There, I was taken deeply into a part of me that I never knew existed. I was opened up to a force much greater than myself, a force that gave me the ability to heal by channeling the Divine.
This is what works through me to make the work most effective, even healing the wounds that never seemed to heal.
I had finally found the acceptance that I had been seeking all my life. It was time to step into my power and bring my light out into the world.
I’m not going to lie. It took years of consistent hard work, discipline, and a willingness to face my fears.
I did not come into this world as an already enlightened guru, but when all the work I had done finally took root, I realized that if I could heal through my own shadows, so could anyone else.
I felt in my heart that I had made the next transition in my life and had gotten back to the life path I knew I was meant to walk.
Like the infinite universe, the work keeps going. I continue to add to my shamanic toolbox. I have studied with healing masters in England, the United States, Mexico and South America. I am a graduate of the Foundation for Shamanic Studies’ two-week intensive training program, and am currently completing my Somatic Experiencing Practitioner Training.
In the 20-plus years I’ve been on my healing path, I have called upon many diverse modalities for different situations. In each case I have been able to find the right ones that continually unlock my next steps and release any trauma when present.
Healing through your shadow and getting to your core purpose is easier than you think.
Like I did in the past, you’ve been overthinking and over-analyzing what needs to be done next because it all has to make sense. Are you ready to move beyond:
- the blocks that are holding you from your dreams?
- old limiting patterns and beliefs?
- hesitating to know who you really are?
- unreleased past traumas?
- fear of success or failure?
You can rest assured you can achieve all these things and so much more. You can live the life you knew you were meant to live, flow freely, and have FUN again.
You know it’s time to make this happen.
I’m here for you.